Maybe…

Maybe I’m trying too hard sometimes…

To make myself feel better,
despite the awkward situations around me.

To run away from the real world,
to a place where I find my very own comfort zone.

To NOT accept the things as they are,
because of a fear of losing them.

To ignore the reality of the moment,
because of being too afraid of getting hurt.

To breathe past the tears,
because I know if I start crying now, I may never stop.

To let my fears take control of my thoughts,
I don’t wanna be weak.

All this “trying”,
these situations defying,
drains me at some point,
uncertainty,
blurry,
out of control,
it all gets.
Maybe for once,
only if I let go of ‘me’,
surrender to my emotions,
just for once,
I may find that peace,
I’m yearning for,
Maybe…

Never lose that smile. 🙂